四季电台 ’23春
SETLIST:
The Who - Baba O’Riley
Rick Astley - Whenever You Need Somebody
Budgie - Never Alone
Grip - Chicken N Dumplins
Grip - He Is… I Am
Ben E. King - Stand By Me
Stereolab - The Flower Called Nowhere
Bon Iver - Beach Baby
Snoop Dogg - Let’s Get Blown
BROCKHAMPTON - The Family
Brook Benton - You Were Gone
León Larregui - Locos
sakanaction - Wasurerarenaino
Daft Punk - Touch (feat. Paul Williams)
CURATOR NOTE:
23年的春季让我爱上了街头摄影。手头的X100F已经因为胶片模拟热潮而重回高价。甚至作为一台使用固定镜头系统的旁轴相机来说，它过于昂贵了。
以前一直以为拍摄是一件结果大于过程的乐事。毕竟用几种胶片模拟配方，套几层 Lut 就可以随心所欲地决定成片的结果。但街头摄影需要观察，并大胆地与身边的陌生人偶遇。或无意或刻意地制造不确定性，会强制拍摄者参与到身边的喜怒哀乐之中，短暂地与身边的世界产生交集。在为数不多的拍摄体验中，我找到了那份兴奋，胸中的伪善与同理心似乎找到了寄托的巢穴。
回到音乐，身边的一位新朋友提到了生活中的执念。就如同 Frank Ocean 在 Lens 中的那句“Back home with that almost / Back home with that next time” , 更如 Jerrod Carmichael 在 GONE, GONE / THANK YOU 里讲到的“I hate wasted potential, that shit crushes your spirit. It really does, it crushes your soul.” 我们总会被各种执念所折磨：构图一张风景照的执念；体面结束一段恋情的执念；拿到一份完美工作的执念。似乎我们的“机心”都放在了编织美好想象的执念上。似乎也会坚信一份耕耘会换来一份回报。但永远混沌的世界一次又一次地重击在我们曾信仰的道路上。“一定可以”的掌控感逐渐远离现实，直到演化为失望与心碎。
五月十二日是 Daft Punk 经典专辑 Random Access Memories 发布十周年。这个早已解散的乐队也将发行同名专辑十周年纪念版。在他们的告别视频中，那首 Touch 似乎在默认未知生命的存在。当然，他们的音乐本身也似乎不曾属于这个时代。最终，迷一般的随机，竟帮助着我们走向一个不完全清晰的未来。
Dissect 是我最爱的播客之一，就以 GONE, GONE / THANK YOU 的音乐赏评作结，希望我们都能在混沌与随机中遇见属于自己的幸福。
Transcription:
[…] Letting go implies giving up the fight and moving on from the hope of things working out while being okay with it, implies a holistic acceptance of the experience for what it was: relinquishing yourself of any residual bitterness or resentment. It’s a process that proves to be extremely difficult. A process that clearly reveals the two-sided scale of emotional investment: the unavoidable reality that the more of ourselves we put into something, the more that we will feel both good and bad.
This is, of course, the inherent “high risk, high reward” of a meaningful intensely chromatic connection with another. Indeed, each connection we make has the potential to develop an infinite number of ways. And among the thousands of connections we make across our lifetime, it’s extremely rare to find one that you believe is eternal, that has the potential to build your forever on. And when the universe gives you that rare connection, when you believe wholeheartedly in this potential and that potential isn’t realized, when it one day just evaporates into the ether. Well… There’s really nothing more devastating. As Jerrod put it, wasted potential crushes your spirit. As you stand alone at the crossroads of your life with and without someone, mourning not only the end of your time together, but also the time that never was; mourning the dream of a future that will never be.
This is the composite of memories, dreams, nostalgia, loss, remorse and bittersweet gratitude that GONE, GONE / THANK YOU so beautifully captures. As Tyler traverses this emotional terrain with honesty and grace, coming out the other side having finally obtained what we all hope to find after having our heart broken.
Peace.
-四季电台 ’23春 / curated by alex